#this is the only vent post I'm going to allow myself about this

[camellia-thea]

initially this post had some commentary about interests right now. and then it turned into a ramble about personal healing in the tags. so the interest post is going separately.

[sim-berry]

I'm Tired.

I totally get why many simblrs don't want to name and shame and want to avoid drama, but I'm not one of those simblrs. If I see some bs I'm going to call it out. I only have a few followers (who are lovely and sweet) anyway, so it's not like I'll get a crusade against me. So that's exactly what I'm gonna do, because I'm pissed right now.

I know I don't have a big blog so it's unlikely many will see this, but if you do, please reblog it. Spread the word about creators who have stolen content so that people can stop downloading their cc and supporting them.

One of my favorite creators, Toys of Dukeness, has just deleted all their poses from Patreon and stated that they are leaving the Sims community. Their poses have been STOLEN by other "creators" who have locked them behind paywalls. Keep in mind Toys gives their poses out FOR FREE and they've been STOLEN and put behind paywalls! They're making money off of shit that isn't even theirs! How disgusting is that?? And now they don't even feel welcome in the community that they've given so much to.

And it's funny because I just saw a post from the amazing @simmireen (who makes many of my favorite poses) calling out THE SAME CREATOR for stealing their poses!! Simmireen's poses are stunning and she is kind enough to give them out for free, and she's had her hard work ripped off by an early access paywaller. The same one who drove Toys out of this community: simsulani.

This is a screenshot taken from Toys of Dukeness's post (read the whole thing here) that specifically calls out two of the thieves:

If this keeps happening, more of our wonderful cc creators are going to leave simblr. And I don't blame them one bit. Why put hours, sometimes days, of work into creating content when it's just going to be stolen and profited off of by someone else?

And when those creators do eventually leave, do you know what we'll be left with? Scummy perma-paywallers and early access creators who use minority groups to make money. (As a member of the LGBT I can't tell you how fucking sick I am of seeing "Pride Month Collection- Available to the public on June 30th🥰")

We can't let that happen. We need to support and show love to the creators who allow us to have beautiful cc and amazing poses in our games. I can tell you right now my stories would be nothing without simmireen's and Toys' poses. And they aren't the only creators who have had their cc stolen. We're on here about AI stealing art all the time (which is a totally valid argument, don't get me wrong), meanwhile actual humans, fellow simmers, are stealing content right under our noses, right this moment.

I am TIRED of this. Our content creators are being driven off this site and out of the community entirely because their work is being stolen. Storytellers, including myself, have also had their storylines stolen. I once saw someone take my entire NSB Gen 2 storyline, with even the quotes being copied and pasted! If you don't have creativity, then don't make content, that's okay. What's not okay is STEALING from people who have worked hard on their craft, ESPECIALLY if you're making money off of the stuff you stole.

Again, please reblog if you can. And feel free to share some REPUTABLE creators so simmers know who to download from rather than the thieves. They're the ones who need to be driven out, not the hardworking creators. And anyone who is afraid to vent about this on main can come into my anon and rant all they want. We as a community need to stop this.

-Coco xoxo

[bunlaozu]

Missing you.

[Redacted] X Reader

type: fluff (this time)

word count: 1614 (not super long this time)

warnings: none! (also this time, more interesting stuffs in the future tho!)

hai this is gonna be basically my intro to tumblr! first post yayyy (੭˃ᴗ˂)੭

i thought to myself hey, what is ren really like at home? and im sure my moots will know what i rly think of him but.. i thought it would be cute to write how i think he'd act a couple years post game, a small domestic moment i thought up for u (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

(also pls pls ignore my bad grammar and punctuation, this is very beta)

You and Redacted had been living together quite a while now, almost two years! Really it was just shy of perfect, something was always happening in your apartment with them, some project or puzzle or new game they'd decided you must play together. This weekend was particularly lazy, with nothing to do actively around the house having done all the chores alone for once.

See, Redacted, you'd discovered early into your relationship, was a nerd. He loved his computers and his small robots, he loved to build and tinker and usually left his office quite a mess. He'd found a part he needed for his latest project off some internet forum, something no longer produced, "rare", he'd said. The only downside is that the pickup was almost 4 hours inland, meaning he'd have to be gone almost the entire day.

Redacted had slid out of your bed much too early in the morning and bade you a kiss goodbye, whispering you softly back to sleep before you'd even really noticed. That meant you hadn't seen him properly since the night before, which.. was fine, and it was normal for partners to be busy. but you missed him anyways, terribly even, especially in his absence of usual texts he sent constantly when not home.

It was about 7pm now and the blood red sunset on the beach cast a glow into your home, spreading across the pristine white marble flooring almost like spilled juice. you stood in the kitchen having decided to cook for once, in Redacted's absence who usually always insisted to do this. You stood at the stove, stupid pun apron on and wooden spoon in hand making spam fried rice with a fruit tart dish in the oven. It wasn't much but it was something he loved and you hoped to surprise him with it when he got home tonight, god willing it be before midnight since the location app the two of you shared wasn't picking him up anymore.

You paused a moment to admire the shining gold band on your left hand, a pretty diamond nestled in ornate but simple patterns. Not that it could be seen but when Redacted had proposed to you just 6 months ago you'd discovered he'd had your rings engraved, just a simple “always” but it was perfect. The metal glinted in the light of the kitchen and it brought a soft smile to your face before eventually you needed to pay attention to the food on the stove again but with a warm feeling throughout.

You stood in the kitchen humming along to some new love song off the radio, tapping the end of the spoon against the counter before ultimately deciding to use it as a microphone because, why not? No one was home after all. The sounds of the stove vent running and the sizzling of the rice in the pan coupled with the music covered anything else, a small little bubble of life which a certain someone was hearing from the foyer as he snuck through the front door.

You didn't notice a thing, eyes closed having a playful moment to yourself until large warm arms wrapped around your waist and picked you up for a spin. you squealed in surprise and wiggled around in his arms gleefully, wanting to get a look at your lover after a whole day gone. "I'm home~ did'ya miss me?" his low warm voice hummed beside your ear, making you giggle in his hold and immediately reach to shut off the stove knowing he was too clingy to allow you to continue cooking.

"Yes i missed you!! Let me go!!" his arms loosened around you just enough for you to spin around, coming chest to delicate paper with him and gasping the moment you saw what he held close. Between the two of you was a beautiful bouquet of flowers, an entire spring mix of beautiful blues and whites and purples with his smiling hopeful face above the flowers. "What do y-" "I love them!!! They're so beautiful, did you know you're my favorite?" you burst out not even letting him ask, taking the bouquet gently from his hold before leaping into his arms and pressing a hard kiss to his lips.

The two of you stood like that for a moment, wrapped up in each other with Redacted's hands running up and down your sides in warm paths till he seemingly had a new idea. He pressed you back and back and back, practically laying you down on the counter top while his kisses migrated across your face, over your hair, anywhere he could reach. his warm breath raised goosebumps across your skin and his smile pressed into your skin caused a new shiver, making you feel much too warm for an already toasty kitchen. "What are you.. a dog? All over me like a puppy.." you mumbled softly with a lovesick expression, hardly even an attempt at discouraging his overeager behavior.

"Missed you.. Can i not miss you? Missed you all day, missed you so much.." he rumbled softly against your skin where his mouth was pressed, hardly even kissing anymore so much as placing his mouth against your skin just to feel. He whispered the words reverently over and over, pressing the sentiment marrow deep to somewhere it would stick and take hold there, something that would grow. Redacted pressed his nose to your neck for a deep slow inhale, making you giggle at the sensation and finally decide to try and push him away while you squirmed in his arms. This only made things worse when he latched onto your waist tighter with a new determined look in his eyes not hiding the sparkle of mischief.

He left small breaths across your jaw and onto your face, pressing feather light kisses and making a point to be absolutely as close as possible. The cool brush from his nose only tickled worse but he refused to let up, leaving a delicate trail of breathy kisses all over your face and going as far to press his nose to yours, holding just like that for a moment. He slowly opened his mouth and bit on the tip of your nose, making you yelp in surprise and scrunch up with distaste. Redacted practically shook above you in a silent laughter, kissing the small nip better in a sincere apology with his soft eyelashes fluttering into a slightly remorseful smile.

"Redacted.. what is this? What are you even doing?" you said soft and endlessly fond, giving in and closing your eyes to his smirk pressed against your cheek, allowing him his fill of some much needed love. Once he started to nibble on your skin again you finally decided to gently put a hand over his mouth, snickering softly when he just started to gently nip and kiss at your fingers instead. You meant to push him away till his lips met the gold band on your finger, giving it a special devotion with your hand cradled between his own as if he held something to be worshipped. The sight was almost too much to bear, something fuzzy and warm tightening in your chest reminding you that you had this, he really was yours.

"Again, what'll i do with you??" you sighed with the fondest smile and a certain helplessness to your voice as he finally glanced up and your eyes met soft blue, a ghost of a hidden grin on his face, clearly very proud of himself. "Keep me?" he murmured in return, clearly gearing up to dive back in for more kisses which meant quickly squirming away off of the counter, wagging a finger in his direction.

"No more of you! Our dinner will get cold and then what?" you scolded, picking up your discarded wooden spoon to wave in his face. Redacted immediately crossed his arms and puffed his cheeks out in a pout, giving a small kick to the floor with a socked foot like there was any dirt to nudge while glancing up at you to see if his little show was working. "But.. y’could always reheat it..." he said petulantly, reaching for you and not expecting you to dance away, a smile on your face.

He reached for you again with a bit more speed and then it quickly became a game of cat and mouse, doing your best to slip and dodge from his reach while he became continuously competitive. He chased after you out of the kitchen and in front of the couch, smiling so hard it hurt and having worked up a slight pant. when he lunged for you this time you let him catch you, falling back onto the couch with a loud oof and a series of wheezing laughs knocking the breath from you both.

you reached up a hand to cup his cheek, brushing a thumb over the gentle flush from the exertion and excitement. "Got it out of your system? Can we have dinner now?" you said wryly, looking up at him with your best unamused expression. He put on an overly dramatic thinking face and hummed softly, looking around as if this were the hardest thing in the world to decide. his hands ran warm up and down your sides, sliding slowly over the skin under your shirt taking deliberately long touches to burn the feeling of his rough fingers into your skin. Redacted made a sound of affirmation and looked down at you with a smile "Nope. Missed you.”

Needless to say, dinner did need to be reheated and the tart was a little bit too toasty to taste good.

[to-be-spared]

I'm gonna cry just imagining the look on Kentas face when Kim comes for him

okay anon I hope you won't mind me using this ask to vent about the aftermath of the kiss and how that leads us to kim rescuing kenta (HOPEFULLY IN THE NEXT EPISODE)

(already vented about the kiss here. Just in case.)

ALRIGHT.

so right after the kiss where is kenta at. (screenshots quality is going to be: ass. Sorry)

what breaks my heart about kenta (thanks a lot garfield) is that he almost looks apologetic.

as i discussed in my other post, kim took a huge risk with regards to his own feelings and vulnerability when he kissed kenta, and kenta is way too familiar with heartbreak to not see that. but he himself knows he just can't let this go. he can't just get tony get away with it, he has to stop him.

but something does shift in the way kenta acts with kim - he's constantly touching him now.

(first screenshot was supposed to be kenta touching kim's leg. I was just done trying to take screenshots not going to lie)

now obviously these aren't casual touches, they have a very specific purpose - keeping kim safe. kenta wants to make sure kim is constantly within reach, and constantly safe.

you know what it is. it's like by showing his own feelings, kim has allowed kenta to care. it's like kenta cared before the kiss, but he wasn't sure he was allowed to show it. I don't know if I'm explaining this well, so apologies if I repeat myself, but.

I think Kenta clearly cared for Kim before the kiss. In an undefined way, sure, but he wanted Kim close. He could rely on Kim. He trusted Kim. Which, arguably, for Kenta is pretty much everything.

But Kenta didn't know how Kim felt about him - for all he knew, Kim was reluctantly but diligently following Pete's request.

And now that he knows - now that he knows, he's allowed to show care the best way he knows how. Keep Kim safe.

Kenta also becomes suddenly aware of how Kim reacts to him - also because Kim reacts to him far more openly.

So where are we at. Kim cares about Kenta enough to kiss him, enough to follow him into an idiotic plan, enough to want to keep him safe.

Kenta knows. Let me repeat that, Kenta knows. In the sense that, not only has Kim told him. Kim has shown him in a way that Kenta can't deny.

And that's when Kenta tells Kim trust me and asks Kim to leave him behind. Which is arguably a low blow. Kenta is making this a trust issue, when it's really not. Not to mention, Kim is wildly out of his depth (he says so himself), so he can't think of an alternative on the spot.

Kim is so fucking upset.

But I also think Kenta was making himself vulnerable here in more ways than one.

I think Kenta is sacrificing himself and answering Kim's own sacrifice (when he kissed him, if I'm still following my previous post).

Listen, Kenta doesn't take self sacrifice lightly, not at this point. He doesn't care about his life much, that's for sure, but he's fought so hard to get the information he wants from Tony, he's not taking this sacrifice lightly.

He is giving up on his mission. Except that it's all backwards. It's not to save himself. It's to save Kim.

AND SO.

You know the only place left to go?

because now they both know!! And when Kenta is going to thread his fingers through kim's hair I'll lose my mind!!!

And Kenta won't be surprised because he knows at this point, he knows Kim will rescue him. He's already done it. But he'll be surprised because now he knows it's not just because Pete asked Kim to keep an eye on him. It's because someone finally, finally purely and simply cares that Kenta is safe.

[burningcheese-merchant]

There. Vent post is gone. Got someone else screeching at me (real mature, by the way. Sending your little buddy to come harass me in your place. Both of you, grow up and grow a spine. Get thicker skin. Learn to stand on your own two feet and own your own shit without crying and cowering behind your lackeys. You're going to have a really hard time in the real world if you don't. Take that advice before it's too late) and I don't feel like responding to any more drama. Post is gone, people are blocked, that's that. No more talk of this.

I'm just some asshole on Tumblr. All I ever asked was to be left alone. I don't go out of my way to harass random people for the crime of shipping something I don't. And it would be nice if people extended that courtesy to me, regardless of what they think of my ships. I am not interested in having a conversation with someone who will speak to and treat me like I'm an agent of the Devil for shipping something. I do not care how old you are, that is not how you talk to someone. My parents would've beaten me if they found out I spoke to someone like that, regardless of why I did. I am more than happy to engage with people in a polite and civil manner if they do the same for me. If they will not do that for me then I will not do that for them. Perhaps that is not the right thing to do, but whatever. I don't care anymore. I reserve the right to be upset when someone treats me terribly for no actual reason. And I really do not care what your age is. You do not interact with people like that. If you do, then you don't get to cry and act like you've done nothing wrong when the people you treat terribly respond in kind. Talk shit, get hit. That's how the world works.

I made a singular vent post where I did not name anyone and explicitly asked people to please leave that person alone if they somehow found them anyway. I was never looking for drama in the first place. I made one post where I allowed myself to express anger and that was it. I'm only human. I resent being attacked for something so ridiculously small and petty. I am allowed to say something when someone is so harsh and rude to me. And I honestly maintain that staying here and making one vent post instead of engaging any further with this person was the better choice. 1) I am not interested in talking to children anyway. I specifically asked minors to stay away from my blog entirely. I am an adult. Leave me alone. 2) I don't believe that someone who seems to think I'll bring about the downfall of society by shipping a hero and a villain together deserves engagement. I've had conversations with people who disagree with shipping Beast x Ancient and we both came out of them just fine, because we both spoke to each other calmly. This person was never interested in having a conversation with me, they came at me like a rabid dog hunting for scraps. They didn't want to talk, they wanted to yell and accuse. And if that's how it's going to be then you're not worthy of engagement anyway.

Whatever. I'm sorry you all had to see that. Let's all do ourselves a favor and leave it behind now

Edit to add one more thing. Even if I did talk to this kid any more than I did. It would've just turned into "omg why are you yelling at a minor??? Why are you arguing with a minor??? That's so pathetic what's wrong with you???" No win conditions lol. No matter which door I opened, I would've opened it to an angry mob. Only thing I should've done was block them on sight immediately with zero commentary, which I now regret not doing from jump and intend to do with any other people like that from now on with zero tolerance. This is a video game about talking cookies. It's all so tiresome

[remus-poopin]

It seems like you somehow manage to have one foot in the marauders fandom and one in the snape fandom and I’m so impressed. How do you do it?

Also, since you get to see both sides of things I’m wondering what you like the most about each fandom?

Ok this is an interesting question! Honestly I think I’m able to do this, and do this enjoyably, because I really try to make an effort to not moralize. This hasn’t always been how I interacted with fiction in the past, so it’s been a tricky process of learning how to do this with consistency. But it is something that I think is very important for me to do, not only because I have a better time in fandom when I'm not moralizing, but also because it inspires a sort of self reflection and allows me to practice empathy in a way that’s feels more analytical than emotional/inherent. And in the case of navigating two fandoms that have a built in tension between them, this becomes especially helpful.

The tension between the snape and marauders fandom almost always comes down to moralizing. The back and forth arguments between fans are usually rooted in the idea that the other character is not only morally flawed, but more morally flawed than theirs. If you look at any anti Snape or anti James post there’s an underlying agenda that’s trying to prove one is worse than the other. This is pretty irritating to me because I find it to be very boring, silly, and just missing the point of the characters and themes. But this is also irritating because I find that it's ineffective in producing any real meaningful analysis on these characters. Because the goal is not to understand that character, but to condemn them.

(This doesn’t mean that I think you shouldn’t examine the behavior of the characters, just that assigning a moral judgment to that behavior outside the world of that character leads to heavily biased analysis (meaning making it personal and about your standard of morality leads to a messy understanding of the character and story))

Going back to the tension between these fandoms, I think when you’re busy trying to prove how shitty a fictional character is you have a hard time separating them from their fans. Because it’s not really about the character anymore it’s about you and your personal feelings and beliefs.

I very frequently run into posts talking about “snape defenders” and “marauders defenders”, like this is some kind of battle where a side needs to be picked, and then picking a side is a reflection of your morality and politics (I’ve seen marauders fans imply that “snape defenders” are fascists or fascist sympathizers and I’ve seen snape fans call marauders fans “class traitors”, all in the last couple days mind you).

I’m going to be honest and say that whenever this pops up it’s gets pretty frustrating, frustrating because it feels like people are just using these characters as avatars for larger discussions they actually want to be having, but because these characters have specific stories, motivations, and complexities it makes this extremely messy (want to vent about the cult of conservatism that's growing all around us? Bring out the Snape Ken doll and talk about how he deserved his bullying (if he even was bullied)! Hate feeling the weight of capitalism on your chest while the class divide grows larger and larger? Call James “bourgeois scum”!)

(Or as @sideprince wisely said, it’s a way to be political without actually engaging in politics)

So yes I find this tiring, but I also really get it. I have done some form of this myself plenty of times. I am not immune to moralizing or having these same type of strong emotional reactions to a fictional character. In fact, I had this very recently when I watched “Girls” for the first time last month. Until maybe this week I felt a strong hatred for the character “Adam”. This hatred came from seeing him do something in a scene that I considered to be morally repugnant. The scene itself was incredibly graphic and triggering to the point where I had to stop watching the show for a couple days. The disgust response firing in my brain made it so I was incapable of viewing his character as anything but a POS, and all the complexities of him were lost because I refused to engage with them. So all his actions after that were viewed with a moral judgement from me. I mean even when he was being funny, sweet, or just interesting I felt incredibly annoyed because I desperately didn’t want to like him. However I was cognizant of the fact that I was having this sort of moral reaction to fiction because this is a show that is defined by its complex, complicated, and realistic characters, who have all done some very questionable things, and yet he was the only character getting this treatment in my head. So feeling frustrated with my own hypocrisy I decided that I needed to start approaching this differently.

So I made a choice to look at his action, the one that I found disgusting, and start breaking it down: Why did he do that? What was it saying about his relation to shame, power, control, violence, sex, gender, etc.? How else has he reacted to those issues in the show? I kept asking those types of questions, on and on, until suddenly I wasn’t just thinking about the disgusting act itself, but the character. The act stopped being about my own feelings and trauma and became about him.

That’s what I do with the marauders and snape, that’s what I strive to do with any fictional character, because to me that’s the most enjoyable way to engage with fiction. And I find that the fun I have in fandom is greatly limited when I’m pissed at a character, because it makes it difficult to interact with others who are their fans. If I see that someone is playing with that character, a little voice would go, “but what about my anger?” followed by a sharp sting. That type of anger, that moral anger, is personal, but this character is public, it lives beyond me and my feelings. My anger is mine, it never belonged to the public.

And I have at some point felt that same type of moral disgust/anger for both the marauders and snape. But I zeroed in on what specific action was making me feel that way, tried to understand why I had that reaction in the first place, and then went back to the action itself and tried to contextualize it within the character and story so it was removed from myself.

That’s how I’ve been helping myself with the moralizing issue. I’ll still have these reactions in the future, I might even have one on here, but I'll keep working on it. Because either way I love all of these characters and I want to continue to be able to exist in both fandoms without having to choose a side, or even lean a certain way. When you're not trying to win the war on which character was the Shittiest™ the pressure turns off and you can just enjoy these multifaceted characters with their many flaws and many strengths.

And as for what I like most about each fandom: I adore the snapedom because I've always felt that the best meta in the entire hp fandom came from there. Honestly the whole reason I love snape so much wasn't because I ever felt particularly identified with him, but because I read a billion incredible metas and analyses about him and truly came to appreciate his complexities.

For the marauders side I think I really enjoy the camaraderie, there are a lot of really sweet and cool people I’ve talked to on here and that's always been a blast!

[miraculouslbcnreactions]

You know? I really, really love your blog and your posts! I can't say that I'm in love with the show anymore, and if I'm honest with myself, I think that I'm on the salt side of the fandom. But like, I also enjoy a bit of sugar? It reminds me of what could have been.

But, sometimes, I feel that sugar fans are hard on salters/disappointed fans... Like, I'm afraid of asking their opinion about a negative aspect of the show, just to understand their pov, no matter if I try my best to be polite. And I get it, they have a right to enjoy the show and I am not entitled to get an answer from them, but its a side of the fandom that I'm afraid to interact with even if I enjoy some of their fanworks.

Yet, you are so patient and I feel that you understand (or try your best) both sides + the writers' and try to find a middle ground while affirming your perspective. You are so respectful even though you might not agree with some askers.

So, thank you for being you and making this blog! The world needs more people like you <3

Thank you so much for the kind words! I'm glad that I come across as respectful. I certainly try to!

I started this blog because I needed to vent about some things. Writing stuff down is a really good way to get your mind to stop pestering you against your will and I highly recommend it, but I didn't feel comfortable doing that on a blog more openly tied to my fan creations because there really is this vibe that you need to either love the show or get out. No middle grounds allowed. As if the show has to be perfect for you to be allowed to engage with it. That's not a healthy mindset for anyone to get into especially if you want diverse and interesting fan creations in your fandom. The more people feel like they have to fit a certain mold to be welcome, the less creations you get.

It's one thing to request that your personal blog be sugar only or to not want to engage with more critical posts, but to act as if people aren't welcome in any part of the fandom unless they only talk about good things is not how you get a fun and active fandom. It seems like people are legitimately scared of saying anything bad about Miraculous, but canon has a lot of things that aren't great so the sugar fandom is dying off because the only options are to shut up and be welcome or talk about what's bothering you and be kicked out. A single salty post can get you thrown out no matter if you're usually pretty positive or neutral about canon. It's weirdly culty and not my cup of tea. I like talking about media and you generally can't do that if you're only allowed to say positive things.

A while back, I joined a fandom event to meet other fans and one of the rules of the event discord was "no salt" and so people just... didn't talk about anything to do with the show. The only activity the server saw was the question of the day and occasional writing question even though episodes were actively airing at the time. It was a really depressing experience that perfectly showcased why "no salt" is an okay rule for a personal blog, but a terrible rule for any sort of group setting. It just kills people's ability to talk if they're constantly policing what they say.

My rule of thumb for this kind of thing is that people are ALWAYS allowed to disengage from a conversation that's upsetting them and that you should respect people's boundaries for their personal spaces like blogs, but that you do need to grow a backbone if you want to be in bigger fandom spaces. You're going to see shit you vehemently disagree with, but in most cases, the way to deal with that is to go do something else and let the people have their fun. If a post of yours starts getting a bunch of upsetting replies, turn off the notifications. Block the blogs. Curate your corner of fandom, don't curate fandom as a whole otherwise you get something like Miraculous. I've never seen a fandom so afraid of critical thought as Miraculous seems to be. I don't know if it's because it's younger or actively airing or what, but it's weird. It's totally cool if someone just wants to turn off their brain and have fun with it, but it's not cool to get mad that other people want to talk about the very real problems with the writing and the messaging.

[windvexer]

Hello,

In your "practice sorcery in a not soul-sucking way" post, you mention a beginner artist doodling a landscape then saying their art "doesn't work".

I was wondering if you have a spell for warding a space against unwanted attention/negative energies, which was the magical equivalent of "paint or scribble until the whole page is black"?

No particular skill necessary, just something blunt and brute-force which may take a lot of energy (SCRIBBLING AS GARD AS YOU CAN AAAA) but which would be cathartic? It's my first spell since.... Playing around initiating a wand with my friend when we were kids. Wow.

The thought of trying to learn correspondences or something is.... Exhausting-sounding. I just need a space that's mine. Maybe with a "keep this space calm and quiet" element thrown in.... And something with knot-tying that leaves me with a charm I can hang, maybe?

If this is too much/too specific, feel free to disregard (though I'd appreciate knowing you got the ask). Thank you so much for your time, and I hope things are going well for you. Also, your chicken-frying spirit-trappjng pot is gorgeous.

Good morning, or it will be in 20 minutes when midnight rolls over.

We are in reference to this post about practicing sorcery, and also this post about my pot of many uses.

Yes I imagine there is probably a short answer but you've given me the chance to talk about theory, so :)

Knot-tying magic is nice and easy, and I really think it doesn't require special skills beyond tying knots. I have this old post about making a simple hanging charm with macrame.

One thing that helps me with the idea of knot magic is that you're always going to be binding something.

You can go with the idea that you are binding up statements of intent which then become like the rungs on a ladder, allowing other energies and intents to climb up into reality.

But I imagine more commonly, you bind things up to trap them (and perhaps releasing them for use later).

This provides a decent idea for part B of your spell, "keep this space calm and quiet." A nice knot tied up by the door to capture disruptions and bind them up and make them inert might suffice.

As for your part A, warding against unwanted attentions and negative energies - you've got options.

And a good place to start is that you want a space that's yours.

I am a huge believer in the efficacy of spiritual authority. Crudely put, there is actual magical power in saying, "this is my space. I own it. Only things I invite inside are allowed."

I don't mean that it's personally powerful, or therapeutic, although it may be those things. I mean that I believe it literally changes something in the record books of the Otherworlds.

Of course it immediately gets more complicated, especially in cases of territory disputes, but by and large a powerful first step for making a space feel safe, comfortable, and barred from unwanted attention and negative energies,

is to magically announce that the space is yours, you are its keeper, and from that point on you call the shots.

Perhaps best of all, doing so requires no correspondences. Just go around and start telling the world how it's going to be. Start with the doorway, and pay due respects to windows and vents. Not because they're vectors of negative energy contamination, but because thresholds are their own species of Creature and know a little bit more than some of the baser household construction.

Put on some music or whatever to get yourself in the state of mind to take it all seriously, and then go to the main entrance and say, "hello; let me introduce myself formally." (And then introduce yourself). "I'd like to let you know I'm going to be responsible for this space from now on. I'm the keeper of this room, and it's on me to decide what comes and goes - not other people in the household."

And then go about to all the various things in the room (for some reason I guess I decided this is for your bedroom) and let them all know that this is your space and you're taking the reins. "Rug by the door, I love the pattern you've got going on. Just to let you know-"

Draw a finger over the wall. That's your wall; the space within it is your space. Touch the window frame and the door frame; they frame only what you allow to pass through, and nothing else. Touch your old things and dig deep through layers of the past: speak the new truth to stacks of things that have been peacefully slumbering for years.

Just go around and have a nice time with it, and in general claim your space. That will set you up pretty well for whatever kind of work you'd like to do next.

The reason I recommend all these big paragraphs of things is because I think it fits the bill of what you're looking for, re. not requiring extra skills.

But then once you've got the room on board and you're set up as the new captain, you might well like to ask the door to keep out intruders. And you should; let the door know your vision of the room moving forward is that nobody but you tries to come into it.

And while you're at it, you might as well give your door a garotte to strangle anyone who tries to come in.

Or.... strangle the energy of intrusiveness in general, you know.

With the knot spell that we were talking about earlier!

If you prepare something nice and simple, like a macrame crystal net, or even a simple overhand knot in some cord, position this by the entryway so that the charm works in tandem with the door (who, remember, is now on your side but could possibly do with reinforcements).

(By the way, a decent way to 'cast' a knot spell is to take some cord and prepare a loose knot and wait for the irritating thing to happen; at the moment it happens, quickly yank the knot closed, and tell the cord, "see? That's exactly the thing I'm talking about, I've just given you an example to work from. You go ahead and bind up the rest now, just like that." Give the cord another knot that's not completely tightened, to let it do the rest itself.)

Besides getting the doors and windows on your side, and tying up intruders, I think you may especially enjoy a nice dish of salt. That link is to @aesethewitch who made a lovely writeup on the idea of ambient spells, and I think this may be just your thing.

I think technically it could be a nice dish of anything, but I think salt probably fits the bill. It's very cheap if you need to buy any, but more importantly, it's got an excellent "filtration" effect that helps to keep a space free of bad vibes.

As far as the political landscape of the room, such a dish of salt could hypothetically be placed anywhere, unlike the sneaky cord of binding, which probably ought to be right next to the door so it can pounce at first sight of an interloper.

[borderline-culture-is]

Bpd culture is typing out something here and then deleting it bc it was too negative/venty and I think we need some more positive and healing focused posts in the bpd community.

So instead have some healing related things I learned & am working on improving!:

• if I feel myself spiraling or splitting, I try to remove myself from conversations. I had to learn the hard way that I just hurt my loved ones and act toxic during severe episodes, so I'm taking measures to ensure I can be a better friend, partner, sibling etc.

• looking more therapy and rehab options. Both clinics I was at were useless, so I had to look into other things. Being around people and needing to keep my reactions "under control" is helpful - especially because we do have a "quiet room" where we can go and rest if things get too much.

• I also have ADHD, and funnily enough my ADHD meds seem to help my bpd. Looked into it and apparently that's an actual thing for some of us who have both! -- my ADHD Meds & Anti Depressants together are a huge help :) but especially the ADHD meds!

• self reflection. Looking at my actions after and realizing it was bad, learning to apologize and acknowledge my flaws. -- I cant undo the hurt I caused during severe delusional, unmedicated episodes. And I do wish I had a way to erase some things I did. I realize the best i can do is take accountability, self reflect and remove myself from situations early if necessary.

• trying to focus on the here and now. Is hard. I'm still learning that, but I'm trying my best. I can't undo the things I have done in the past, and I can't change how others from then saw me if they cut contact already. The only thing I can do is work on improving myself and getting better *now* so that future me will be a better person

• telling myself off when I'm being mean to myself. If I catch me insulting myself or something, I try to tell myself off. It's hard, especially during self splits. My FP actually made me start doing this, because they expressed not liking me insulting myself. They didn't directly tell me to tell myself off, but it started with me going "No, FP wouldn't want me saying that about myself!" Subconsciously.

• trying to shift from "I'm doing this (taking care of my body) for FP!" & seeing my FPs as my reason to live to instead be like "I'm doing this for myself, and I can share it with my friends & FP so they can see that I'm getting better!" Its one thing to tell our loved ones we are trying to heal, and another one to show them. I'm trying to not see my FP as my reason to heal, but as someone important to me who is proud of me for healing. They are there to catch me if I fall, but they shouldn't need to carry me completely.

I think I wanted to add more but my brain zoned out uhhh.... I might do a pt2 at some point.

I do think that many BPDers may need some more positivity & healing info. Because often the tags online are clogged with vents, people enabling unhealthy coping techniques and delusions.

So I hope this helps someone out there. I don't blame anyone who isn't ready yet to get better, for whatever reason. I've been there for a long time and it took ages for that wall to break down. But I'm finally starting to work on it.

-🧪🦝

hey, even for the mods these things really mean a lot and I appreciate little pieces of advice so much!!!

(however just remember that you are allowed to have your emotions and experience them)

[fanficmanic]

Long post ahead - I need to vent, or else I feel I will break down.

The thing about calling it a "comfort show" is right there in the freaking name. You use it for comfort when real life is kicking your ass halfway into the next century.

911 is (was?) my comfort show. It's actually the only tv show I'm currently actively watching. I only started watching last June while going through a very rough time in my life. My health was going haywire and doctors weren't able to tell me anything. I wasn't able to do anything - the simplest action would knock me off my feet for hours out of sheer exhaustion. I was a very low point in my life (between my depression and trying different meds that didn't help at all but only succeeded in giving me very dark thoughts) and I needed a distraction. Something that would take my mind off the colossal fuckupedness that is my life.

Then I found 911, and by everything holy, did it succeed in taking my mind off everything, even if it was for a few hours each week.

Before 911, I had not written a word of fanfiction in over 7 years, and that really added to my worsening mental health. I love writing, and the show brought that back.

I took comfort from the show. It made me feel good to watch my favorite characters grow and build their lives while mine was barely being held together like a house of cards.

I know the powers that be behind 911 don't owe me jack shit, but yesterday's episode felt like a slap across the face.

See, the thing is. I grew up without my dad being part of my life. I distinctly remember spending most of my childhood wondering what I did wrong that he didn't want to be my dad, then my teenage years resenting him for not even trying.

Somewhere along the lines after I got married and had my child, our non-existent relationship started to actually exist, and being a sucker, I allowed him back into my life. It was an awkward relationship at best, but I appreciated that he was trying.

He died 4 years ago, and to this day, I still feel like I don't have the right to be sad about it. I'm 40, and he was barely my dad for maybe 6 years of my life.

All my life, I've watched shows and movies, but never did I wish I had a dad like any character the way I wished my dad was like Bobby Nash.

Yes, I know it's a fictional show with fictional characters, but this brings me back to my first point. 911 is (was?) my comfort show, and seeing a character I love so dearly die like that opened wounds I didn't know were still very raw.

In all honesty, I don't really know how to describe how I'm feeling right now other than betrayed. Maybe I feel more betrayed by myself for allowing myself to get so attached and so emotional about it.

I feel like I want to stop watching after yesterday, but just as I got attached to Bobby, I got attached to the rest of the 118. I've put in time and effort in writing stories about them, and I don't want to just give that up. I wanna see how they deal with their grief, and maybe that could help me in dealing with mine (about my dad and Bobby). I want to see where each character's story goes.

Maybe I'm just a sucker and want to keep watching in hopes that I will still get comfort from the show.

Maybe I'm just naive and the show is going to keep fucking up with me more and more from this point on.

Bottom line is: I'm not ok, and I'm not sure how to be ok again.

[myfandomrealitea]

I had to check myself recently because I'm so used to being in discord servers with vent channels, that when I ended up joining one *without* a vent channel, I realized Holy shit, where can I go to complain about the day-to-day things that piss me off? And I thought of your post & took a step back, like You know what? I can complain on my own time, on my own blog, or in private to a close friend who offers to listen. I can just let this server be fun.

Anyway, I think people are still furious over your post because (and forgive me if someone's said this before) the availability and reach of the internet has conditioned ppl to believe that it's acceptable/required/encouraged to vent in any space, at any time, to anyone, and that the audience should willingly receive it. It's like a form of brainwashing.

Honestly, the single major response I've gotten is people screaming that I'm an evil racist white bitch oppressing people of color because I'm asking them not to talk about genocide or police brutality in fandom spaces.

There is a huge, huge difference between stopping someone who is actually, actively being racist within a public space and asking people not to force others to constantly engage with and expose themselves to the horrors of the world, especially in spaces where they have retreated specifically to recover from those things.

Its basically like going to a wellness and recovery retreat and forcing everyone there to watch the news and read articles and watch videos about world horrors.

Almost everyone in a Discord server has profiles on other social medias. Everyone on the internet sees, willingly or not, what is happening in the world right now. We all know these things happen. We are not blind. We are not ignoring it.

When I go onto Discord and go into my silly little fandom servers, its after I've spent an hour on Tumblr on my main blog reblogging aid posts. Circulating information. Doing my best to connect people to people who can help them. Its after I've spent my lunch break at work listening to my colleagues talking about the latest knifing or child kidnapping. Its after checking Snapchat only to see headlines like MAN BRUTALLY STABS DOG IN PUBLIC PARK.

When I go into those servers, its because I need to get away from all of that. I need to have that time away where I can recover and recharge or I simply won't go online because I know there is absolutely nowhere online where I can simply enjoy something without other people grabbing me by the head and forcing me to look elsewhere at things that are horrific and upsetting.

And the thing about those spaces is they themselves need protection and moderation in order to remain safe. And you know what that means?

It means preventing racism and homophobia. It means if someone is being unpleasant, they get shut down. If someone is being bigoted, they get removed. Because they are making that space unsafe.

Literally nobody except these idiots screaming about racism are suggesting that we just outright allow racism to keep happening.

[dunmeshistash]

Hey im @holmsister tumblr is tumbling as usual.

About the Maizuru complaint and bad faith interpretation: I feel the same way about POC in this fandom. I didn't really engage in fandoms that have many canon POC because most of my reading in the last years has been historical and classical European lit and nonfiction so like. The racism is baked into the source so to speak. AND im super white so im not going to try and speak out of turn. But moving into a fandom for a recent work of art in which there are important characters of colour has been... enlightening (derogatory). Also not naming names, but the way white characters are extended grace for things the POC are criticised extensively is... enlightening (derogatory). Maizuru, being at the intersection of being a woman and POC, is obviously going to get the brunt of it. Especially because yeah, she's not exactly a pleasant character - yeah, the way she treats the other retainers is not nice. But she is basically a sex slave. Like we can mince our words as much as we like, add in everything about how she is clearly being well-treated and not resentful, etc etc, but she's there to entertain Nakamoto and she can't say no if he comes to her room. All of her privileges are dependent on her pleasing him. That doesn't mean that she can't be abusive in her own right - but like. How old was she when she was taken in by Nakamoto? She's been around since Toshiro was little, remember? Hell, her obsession with being a good retainer with Toshiro might be a way to safely "escape" Nakamoto - after all, if she's following Toshiro around, she's not in her parlour waiting for his father's next visit, and if Toshiro, who has no interest in her, became the next head of the household, she would be allowed to live out her last years in peace. Like this is speculation of course, but it's based on what we know of the character in much the same way any other speculation is - I'm choosing to give her the benefit of the doubt the same way I do for example Laios choosing to join the army.

Sorry for the vent, it's just. The complexity of the characters is a good thing! Stop trying to find a bad guy, you're missing the point! (And showing your ass in the process). everyone has complex motivations!

Truly, people hate nuance and it seems like internalized misogyny and racism amplifies that.

I feel like at least for the racism one there's more awareness and people speak more about it? But I usually see misogyny arguments being dismissed a lot more so I got specially angy at it.

I guess I wanted to find a reason outside misogyny to justify how people treated these character's cause I've seen lots of people being mad about that before about other characters and even thinking myself "It's surely not that bad/widespread, this character is the one that sucks" but when you have a more general view of reactions it becomes painfully obvious.

Thankfully I didn't see the racism against Toshiro (maybe cause I barely post about him) but I can only imagine.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for telling my Grandma I'm not going to have a specific conversation with her and just walking away?

So context, I (28) am currently between jobs because one of my ex-coworkers was the asshole who got me fired, and I haven't found anything new.

My mother (50) and I both live in my Grandma (80)'s house which is divided into an upstairs and a downstairs. Grandma lives in the downstairs. So do my mom and sister. I live alone in a two bedroom upstairs which belonged to my late aunt.

Right after my aunt died, I wanted to clean the apartment, organize, donate, toss, keep her stuff. To make sure everything gets where it'd ought best go, but my mother told me I had no right to go through my aunt's things alone and sort keepsake from takaway; if I was to do anything it was to be with her.

Well, three years of me trying to get my mom up here to sort through it with me because I want to respect her wishes, and my stuff accruing in a layer over top of my aunts stuff because I can't get rid of it, and the apartment is a lifetime and three years mess. My mom never made the time to do what she told me I wasn't allowed to do without her, me respecting these wishes which she probably doesn't even remember. I've been living up here too afraid of trespassing against my aunts memory to clean the cobwebs full of her red hair. Because my mother said, I had no right to do it.

And that cleaning anxiety is on top of executive dysfunction, depression, having too much shit, being a sprawler type adhd, and working a 40 h/week 'part-time' retail position. I didn't have it in me to clean by myself, and the mess kept getting worse and no one would substancially help me no matter how much I asked. Not my mom and not my sister (who gets a pass because she's got post-exertional malases from Long Covid).

Now fast foreward to two weeks ago. My mother final finds the motivation to clean the upstairs apartment because she's got a boyfriend now, and they wanna have sex upstairs where my grandma can't hear it. They didn't ask me if it was okay or anything: just decided that my space is now OUR space because it's convinent to her. I don't really care, and I'm annoyed, but finally someone to clean the fucking apartment with. She said, two weeks ago that he'd be coming around in about four months time. We spent the day getting a lot of cleaning done. Not anywhere near all of it, but a lot. And I've finally gotten what I see as permission to start sortitioning my aunts things. I'm pacing myself cleaning on that four month timetable.

And then today she bursts into the apartment to announce that BF will be here in a week, and she starts hauling major ass with my late aunt's heavy as shit sewing supplies. For my part, I vent the new timeline to my friends and then get to work cleaning my bedroom so I can move the stuff I have sprawled over the living room into my bedroom. Because my bedroom being messy is what's getting in my way the most.

When she's done hauling boxes, she goes to start cleaning the bathroom, and because she's in too much of a hurry on this new self-imposed and sprung upon me timeline, she hurts herself cleaning the toilet. Spasms her wrist, locks up her back. I help her downstairs but she's obviously done for the day, probably done for the week even. I get back to light cleaning with breaks, pacing myself to the new timeline I have to deal with. And I get a call from my grandma.

G: "Hey anon can you come down here." A: "I'll be down in a minute." I pull on pants and a shirt and head down.

And here we get to the key events all that context was building toward.

G: "What happened with your mom." A: "She hurt herself cleaning." G: "I know that, I mean why was she cleaning your apartment. You're an adult who's lived here for three years, and she's the only one working, and now she can't move. Why's the apartment you live in such a state that she needs to clean it for you."

Now, I know my grandma. A mule would be jealous of her stubborn demeanor. She's on an oxygen machine 24 hours a day and she still smokes two packs a week. You can't change her mind once she's made it up.

So I'm doing calculations in my head while she's laying into me, and I conclude she's made her mind up: She thinks I'm 100% in the wrong and nothing that came out my mouth would convince her that my mom is just as much an adult as I am who is responsible for her own decisions that got her to overworking when cleaning and hurting herself in the process, and also several inter-related key factors in why so much cleaning needs to be done on an 'oh fuck, immediately' timescale.

Doing the math makes me a bit angry, and I don't like the type of person I get to acting like when I'm angry, especially because anything I say will just make her more upset, so I say, "Grandma, I'm not going to have this conversation with you."

And I walk away. I leave while she yells at me to come back and let myself be yelled at. I'm angry, so I mindfully do not to slam her door on my way out and go back up stairs

After some scrumbling and a bit more light cleaning with breaks to pace myself, best I can, to this newly imposed and unreasonable timetable, my room is 90% clean and ready for me to put my stuff in it. And now that I'm not as angry anymore, I started to feel guilty that I didn't even try to explain anything to her. I just decided she'd made up her mind and made up mine to walk away without even trying. So, I typed this up to ask:

AITA for refusing to engage her in that conversation and just walking away?

What are these acronyms?

[spoopy-arcade]

The hate on Roxy because she's a "bitch" and a "narcissist" and... wanting to get Gregory? (When literally everyone besides Freddy is also trying to kill him???) Is so fucking stupid and just shows how much you people hate female characters. I'm about to go in-

First of all, the bad talk at Gregory in SB was because she was hacked by Vanny, (even her behaviour when you see her through the vents in her room) obviously there was no way she'd actually talk like that to a KID, but alot of you seriously believe that. And yeah, ok, she says a few mean things, so what? SO WHAT? If this was Monty's, or maybe Bonnie's personality instead, would you be spewing hate at them, or continue to simp for them and call their behaviour hot? I know for a FACT that a lot of you would. Not all female characters have to be too sweet or quirky and silly for you to like.

Back to Roxy's bad talk, you may think "Well, none of the others bad talk him!!" Yeah, it's because everything Roxy says to him is actually targeted to herself. The game clearly showed us how she actually feels: crying alone in her room, constantly telling herself that she's not a loser, and questioning if everyone loves her. Her praising herself are reminders to feel like she's still loved more than anything.

And the one thing that boosted her confidence alot was her looks. Her looks clearly meant so much to her, and we see this in Help Wanted 2 as well, so obviously she would be furious and lose it if someone took that away from her, including her ability to see.

And before I say anything else, I just wanna say that no I'm not angry at Gregory at all, he is just a child who was doing everything he can to survive, and if I were in his place, I would've done the same as well to protect myself. But at the same time, I understand Roxy's anger too. If I were someone who had very low self esteem that I reassure and prepare myself everyday to hang on, when one day, suddenly someone hits me with a whole go kart that shatters my entire body, and on top of that, they steal my eyes too? Yes, I wouldn't just be devasted, but I'd be very angry as well. Roxy was taken everything away from her, and was left to rot alone, I don't blame her for being angry at all.

Now more onto Ruin, which shows us her true side all along.

In the dlc, I don't think (Or it's clear at this point) that any of them are hacked anymore, since we assume that Vanny left with Gregory and Freddy in the good ending, and Glitchtrap is gone. But with Chica and Monty, I feel like they've just lost themselves and are completely broken. Even when seeing Cassie, they still tried to kill her. But with Roxy, she was the only one who recognised her when she heard her voice, and even apologized for grabbing her.

Later on, when Cassie stumbles onto Roxy again, this is where we see her TRUE self. Where she's sweet, soft, and not as mean as everyone made her out to be. (The way she gently speaks to her and holds her hand will never not make me cry) We know that from Roxy's lines, she was one of few who actually showed up to her birthday, since her friends didn't and was the reason why Cassie was crying in one of the cut outs we see. But Roxy was there for her, and she still remembered her special day, her favourite cake, and she was her number one - twice.

This part CLEARLY shows you that Roxy isn't a selfish jerk who only cares about herself, she cares about the kids, and she cares a lot about Cassie. There's a reason why she's Cassie's favourite, right? And don't forget that she literally went up against the mimic to protect her!!!

And I do wanna say that, no, this post isn't telling you that you're not allowed to dislike Roxy or criticise her at all, the issue is hating her character and personality when she would've been praised for it and called "hot" if she were Monty, Moon, Bonnie, or if she was Glamrock Foxy instead. (Which is... literally misogyny) Like, even before Ruin, there were people who hated Roxy for being a jerk, but then turn around and praise Monty when we see him being way more aggressive, while theorizing that he was the one KILLED Bonnie over jealousy. Not even because he was hacked, just... jealousy, and that's not him being 10 times worse than Roxy???

Don't forget the details in Monty's Gator Golf minigame, where in some levels, Freddy was always seen separated from the gang, and in the last level, you see Monty performing along side Roxy and Chica, while Freddy was thrown in the trash...

To me, this is clearly because he's jealous at Freddy, and wants to be the star instead. And along side him possibly killing Bonnie...

I'm sorry, but while I do like Monty, he is literally WAY more of a jerk. Alot of you people believe he killed Bonnie, is extremely jealous, way more aggressive, and yet Roxy is the worst of all for saying "I bet you don't even have friends" to a child when she was HACKED? But yeah, also praise the literal child murderer and abuser for being "interesting" and a cool character, but no, Roxy is the worst because she's a bitch. It's just so ridiculous, and I'm not surprised in the slightest, female characters will always get this treatment.

Alright, it's finally out of my system, anyway stan Roxy.

[sojirai]

fakeclaiming DID Jirai discourse post.

TW, be safe.

I believe I am following the rules of the confessions blog by not reblogging the post and instead screenshotting it and tagging it with "confessions discourse". Please let me know if I am not following the rules or if this is too messy. I will remove it. But I am enraged and not going to be silence about this when I know the damage it can do.

I don't like stirring shit but as someone with diagnosed dissociative personality disorder from several traumas that is affected by it on the daily, and also knows the horrific damage of fakeclaiming, this was absolutely disgusting and infuriating, and I have incredibly an personal issue with it for myself and the well-being of other systems and singlets in the community, especially the kids who will see it. These disorders are not your place to make accusations about, they are complex, personal, and you can horribly mess people up with this. I refuse to be silent and let syscourse and fakeclaiming culture run rampant in this space, especially about Dissociative Identity Disorder. This can be settled privately if the anon sees it, but — tl;dr, you can vent about skepticism of other people's mental illness without making those kinds of claims and uninformed, baseless accusations. This can harm people and is simply plain wrong, because YOUR definition of a fake DID haver is inlcuding someone like me who is diagnosed and lives with it every single day from repeated severe trauma and will be this way for the rest of my life.

This anon has a very narrow, inaccurate understanding of what DID is. It is not all horrors. This anon has a poorly-managed disorder, and that is tragic. Other people manage their disorder better. They accept it. They work with it. They have good moments. They don't resist and lash out. This is a deep misunderstanding of how the disorder even works, but we aren't getting aren't this.

This anon is flat out incorrect, and it is revolting that they believe it is okay for kids with dissociative identity disorder to be happy with themselves, and accuse them of not having it and "wanting to be like them". Nobody wants to be like that. We could easily be like that if our reactions to the disorder were destructive or types of denial.

Do not fucking accuse disordered individuals of lying because they found a way to be happier than you, and you haven't yet. That is horrific.

Your experiences are not universal. DID does not come with one expression.

I am begging absolutely no one to listen to this bullshit, and instead continue with what is best with you. Anon is horrifically misinformed and taking it out on other systems. Do not let other people dictate and police your disorder and how to engage with it. Your health comes first. And just because you are not in agony 100% of the time does not mean you don't have DID. For many of us it is very healing to accept our other parts and be sociable and allows us to work together.

I'm not letting this problem start. Plurals in the community, keep doing you. No one will ever accept the "good ones with DID who really suffer". Outsiders will judge us no matter what. We must not attack each other. First and foremost we are human beings navigating our complex situations.

This person is entitled to vent, but not entitled to project it onto others and act is if their disorder is only way it can manifest and everyone who isn't miserable is faking. Just because you hate having it doesn't mean other people have to. Leave these kids alone.

By the way, a lot of the symptoms they're citing aren't even the same for other people who dislike the having the disorder. This is overall one of the worst, most narrow-minded takes I've seen. This is a poorly integrated, volatile system. Not all systems are like that. And that is ANON'S BUSINESS to take care of themselves. Not FAKECLAIM MINORS because they are struggling more.

[melkor-did-nothing-wrong]

This is going to be the one post I make to address the fucking "drama", since people are trying to make me look like this bad person who ignores criticism behind my back when I didn't even know it fucking existed.

Since this reply is going to be longer than 2 words, I'd like to insert a quote from the translation of Blaise Pascal's 1657 Lettres Provinciales which I think might be fitting for the whole situation at hand.

"I have made this longer than usual because I have not had time to make it shorter."

Now, let us begin.

No, I am not taking things "extremely seriously" and I am not "THIS upset over a poll". If people decide to come to that conclusion because I added too many tags to a reblog, maybe those people are the ones taking things too seriously. I'm not very pleased with others deciding for me what's in my mind or what's in my heart, especially when it's not true.

I'm autistic. I use fandoms as a fun distraction from difficult situations or events in my real life. Commenting on fandom things allows me to spend time thinking about fandom and distract myself from issues in my real life I can't do much about. I've been told in the past that leaving very short thoughts or incomplete 1-2 word sentences on things is considered unhelpful because it feels forced or robotic and adds nothing to a conversation. Since then I have adopted stream of consciousness style of writing and tagging, and unfortunately it tends to get long. It doesn't mean I'm overthinking a subject or taking it way too seriously, quite the opposite. It means I don't have the time or ability at that moment to think enough about how to elegantly summarize my thoughts in a fun or entertaining way. If you think I'm taking fun things too seriously or taking all the fun out of them because I talk too much, well, that's gonna remain a topic of disagreement between us. English isn't my first language, so things most English speakers could summarize in 3 sentences because it's easy for them, sometimes takes me 5 paragraphs because I don't have the eloquence to craft perfect sentences perfectly. Yeah, I yap. I yap about things that are serious AND things that aren't. I yap because I think that if I talk a lot and elaborate on my opinions, people would be less likely to find some unaddressed point to misinterpret in bad faith. Apparently, some people still manage.

To answer the questions aimed at me, the reason I didn't immediately jump to the poll OP's askbox or DMs is because I was in the hospital. Regular occurrence for me, as most people who read tags on my vent posts know. Unfortunately, it is a bit overcrowded and understaffed lately, so if the doctors or nurses get to me at an unexpected or inopportune time, I can't just tell them to fuck off because I have some Tumblr messages to send. Additionally the wifi was spotty too, and tumblr famously likes eating asks and DM's without warning if the connection is anything less than perfect, even if it's on their end. I did ask a friend if she could send something in my stead, but she was at work. These things happen. Now in retrospect, it looks like it doesn't matter at all and even if I would have done that, OP still would've blocked me if I worded my ideas in a way that is not to their liking. If I am wrong, well, that's just how it is when you make assumptions on others based on 1 fucking interaction.

Now what I do take seriously and care about, is unfairness. If you want to block me for any reason, like if you feel I'm rude, or you think my headcanons are cringe, or if I like stuff that you don't, or for any other reason under the sun, by all means, I'm with you. Blocking is always 100% justified because curating your online experience is important and you owe no one any explanations.

But to fucking frame things as if you're genuinely asking me questions in good faith or trying to show me ways in which I can resolve a situation, only to block me immediately, hence preventing me from seeing any of this, is disingenuous and feels like an action in bad faith. Generally speaking, I understand that sometimes questions can be rhetorical. But not all autistic people can perfectly understand every situation in which that is the case, especially on the internet.

Please don't do that shit to people. You never know when the person on the other side doesn't understand your intent, the same way you never know why people don't reply to you the way you want them. Sometimes it's difficulties they're going through in real life that you can't predict. If you want to make me feel like a bad person for doing something you felt was an insult to you, fair enough. But don't make me feel like a bad person for thinking I've deliberately ignored and avoided your good faith questions to me for a week, when you actually never wanted them answered in the first place and specifically created a scenario where I look bad for not doing so.

I'm sorry if the length of my tags or my disagreements with your choices came across as insulting. and I'm sorry if what you didn't like about my reply was how I was "too serious". I'll be sure to add "lol" or "jk" to everything I say next time. At least until people get annoyed that I'm not taking things seriously enough. When that happens... well. I don't even know anymore.